Happy 5th Months!

Today is 21st of April. Happy Anniversary! i thought there's no more anniversary, but things turned out to be quite different than i thought it will be. there's is so much i want to tell you, but i just don't know how to say it.

i want to thank you for:

• those warm hugs.
• all of the sweet texts that you sent to me.
• the rides home.
• saying things that knocked me death from laughing.
• not giving up on me.
• teaching me mathematics and physics.
• giving me tons to memorize
• all the nights you spent just to make sure that i'm safe
• holding my hands
• getting along with my devilish little brother and my silly girlfriends
• doing anything you can to make me feel comfortable and safe
• all the songs you have sang to me
• hitting back my punches and screams with smile and kisses
• all the tears you've shed for me

I'm sorry for:

• blabbering about kenny & my other crazy bros.
• shit-load of things i shouldn't have said to you.
• the hells i've put you trough
• things i haven't done to you
• my bad temper
• making you run out your patience
• the wrongs i do all over again.
• all the times that i turned my back on you
• not replying your text & answering your call
• my over-loaded selfishness
• the days i fight shy off you
• things i've done to you

Sebenernya gue cuma mau dingertiin. i have my own life, dan hidup itu ga cuma buat mikirin lo doang. I love my friends, yang cowo atau yang cewe semua sama. I want you to get used to my bros, since i always have them in my ups & downs. And i really don't want you to yell at me or seeing you throwing punches & kicks when you are angry. 

I really want to say sorry. gue emang bad temper dan gampang bosen. i admit that. but i simply need a person that can be tough and caring even when i'm in a very bad day. Yes, i have known to change sunshine into rain. :P 

Baca yang bener terus masukin otak. I'm happy as long as you are having fun and feeling perfectly fine. Because, i simply want another day with you and seeing your silly horselaugh.

i love you, i want to say that to you all over again. Anywhere and anytime. 

Once again, Happy 5th Months, Riz! *virtual hug*